Why?!

yea, why??!! arent you suppose to pull me up when others pull me down? why are you doing this to me ? does it make ypu feel so much better when i'm hurt?why are you treating me differently from others?why are you so happy when i'm sad? why do you like to poison the me who is looking at the world with a positive attitude?do you like me being negative? why do you like to gossip about me?why do u like to push me down? i'm not angry with u,i'm just asking why.because i'm willing to change as long as i dun lose u as a friend. well maybe im wrong. you may be a best friend 2me but 2u i am sure i am just some1u pretend to like. im sure i am an idiot to u. well i know im stupid...stupid for lying to myself that u like me.sttpid for believing u.a fool for changing myself to suit ur likes. u can spoil my mood all u like,idc.i'm not going to let u pull me down.u are so not going to control my emotions actions.i am going to be the person that does not get affect getting hurt by u.no,never and ever will i be again.like me?show it! hate me?get lost!all iim going to do is love u and understand why.although im not sure now im sure i will noe soon. u are not going to determine how i treat others anymore.i dun care if u think im thickskin u can tell others too. but please stop it!!!!!!! u mean so muxh to me...even others say so.they can see...