ME

Ummm...okay so i was thinking. Yesterday when Sister Wan Ping was preaching about the Covenant of honesty...i felt really guilty.REALLY. ...always people ask me how are you? you feeling okay?? what happened? obviously somethings wrong with me, but i would lie every single time. yup,i'm fine. dun worry. its nothing la is all i would say. Sometimes...i'm just too afraid. Afraid of what, you may ask. the answer is... I don't want people to Pity me or judge me...that is why its hard for me to tell them. Also...its very hard for me to get close with someone. I'm like a stranger to everyone hahaha ^^ actually i'm quite close to the lg ppl la...but i scared they judge me or pity me if i tell them. so yea i dont. SO todayyyyyyy... i'm just going to blog about 20 Facts about me!!The facts i give,i promise will be thoseee a lot people dont know about me one can??? like this,better hor? No???

1. I get angry very fast, over small matters too.(but my anger go away very fast also)
2. Over some things,i am extremely sensitive. ( like when someone wins me)
3. I set my expectations up high,really high.
4. I will never let myself off if i fail to meet the expectations.
5. I have Serious LOW SELF ESTEEM
6. i like to torture myself mentally,if i failed. (failing = not meeting my expectations)
7. I like to receive compliments ( but its hard come by, cause i'm me. not her)
8. I find it easier to talk to guys than girls,cause girls tend to gossip.
9. I have frequent mood swings.
10. I have not been laughing (real laughter) ever since 26 May 2010.
11. I over-think a lot.
12. When people say that A is good, and then say i am not bad after they say that...i take it as though i am 10%/100% good.
13. I can shout extremely loud.but when i am asked too, sorry i just have butterflies,and i cant over come them. even if u give me 1 hour
14. When i have a hard time, i wont say it out.I'll just let you know through my face.
15. I jet jealous super fast.
16. If i don't like your attitude, i dont care if we used to be friends. BYE BYE
17. I find it hard to reject someone when he/she ask me for favour, even if i dont want to.
18. i am not a quite and shy person
19. I like to study at night...when there's absolute silence.
20. I take critisms seriously...because i believe i would fail again if i do not know them,understand them and change them.