Best friend

Okay just a note this is going to be a rant post. I'll only start blogging on 3rd march which is 6 days away. And sorry for neglecting this blogg a lot :( shall start now...

A best friend... I want one... Just like my cousin. I don't want a group of friends. I mean I love them and like them but I can never be their best friend because it's a group of us and they always have someone else. I'll always be left out. Always feeling inferior to them in terms of looks studies and many things. I just want one friend. Just one. Someone who I can be myself around. Someone who I can share my feelings and someone who can come over and sleep over at my house. Be best friend with my family members too. Someone who is like me and yet so different from me. But who? Who will that friend be? Or maybe best friend? Who? A best friend that knows me. A certain expression and than know I am sad/ happy / acting/ when I failed and exam or passed someone who I can never lie to because he/ she can tell. Someone who I can be totally comfortable about. Someone who will be by me during my worst time. Someone who can be honest with me. Someone who knows my hiding spot and goes there to find me when I'm missing. Someone who knows when "I'm fine" is the truth and the lie...