Thankful

Without us knowing, one year is coming to the end. Just like that. 2013 has been an amazing year. Not because it was a smooth journey, it definitely wasn't at all. However, through each obstacle I have learnt something. That something is a valuable information that will benefit me and how I live my life. Therefore, there are tons of things , people, events that I'm Thankful of for the year of 2013.

TO TAKE NOTE : If your name is not inside, please do not feel offended.

Thank you to my family members, friends who have been there for me this year. This year was a less mood swing year but more of a busy and sometimes emotional year. There were many incidents whereby my actions have hurt a lot of people, but I'm thankful that you guys are still here for me ( at least from my point of view , you are. ) I'm thankful that you guys forgave me despite me being quite childish... hey! you can't hate me, I was hurt. I would like to thank my awesome teachers. This year has definitely been a year, whereby I believe, my teachers trusted me, had faith in me and were there for me when I need it. My form teacher whom I disliked at first, in the end it was still for my own good. My council teachers. and even teachers who don't teach me, i'm thankful for your small conversation with me when we bump into each other in school. Those " Are you coping well with your schoolwork" , " you look tired, have a good rest this holiday", "if you need help afterschool,...". My subject teachers who would stay back after school to help me, even my PE teacher who taught me maths, just so I can pass an A maths test! My awesome seniors, who guided me, offered help and even put smiles on my face. Not to forget, my awesome part mates. A day spent with them is a day full of laughter.

To my amazing friends,

Wan Xuan, Eugenia, Shi Ying, Jie Lin, cynee, Lydia,Yu Ze, xie ting, Ernest, Benjamin, for being there for me for another year yet again,THANK YOU!

Let's not forget the new friendships that I made this year.

Nurin, Hanisah, Yao De, Xuan Lin, Aungwin, Olyvia, Vicole, Jolynn, Wan Yi,vZhong Han, Nick, Yun Liang, Raudza,  Isaac for making my hours spent in class laughing, offering my help when I'm lost in class or homework, knocking sense into my head and being Awesome Classmates.

Benjamin, Xie Ting, Jia Cheng, Mohnish, Vijay , Zhong Han, Yuan Keong, Ellson, Tat Tze, Jee Hao, Syakirah, Hafiyyan, Bernard, Theron, my part Cs, Swee Woei, Shahid, Zahin, Haziq, Yao Bin, Gibson, Gabriel, Gaius for making ncc, pds, fsd trainings fun, memorable and serious.

My dearest Excos, especially Wei Shan, Adeline and Woon Neng who became my best buds, babes and listening Ears. And Jacq for always being there when im Crying hahaha.

Woon Neng, Jun Rong, Imran, for being the best movie clique ever! we need to watch more movies! oh and yes! we upgraded to study clique.

My dearest councillors who had to deal with such an incompetent person who had PMS all the times and is the hardest person to please on earth.

Felise for being happy and being there for me.. Panicking before exams as well

Jacinth , Jessah, Ferdinand : for being the coolest people ever. [ Jacinth for creating a nightmare for me in school which has not been settled!]

The Nicest and Coolest People I met through HQ activities : ( a paragraph for each of you, as I don't get to show my thanks to you guys unlike to those above ) 

Fatin : you don't know how thankful I am for meeting someone like you! you are just like me and Eugenia... Thanks for being there for me and always making me laugh and keeping in contact. Its because of how amazing you are that you get to see both me and Eugenia's crazy side. which I believe will be one of the many beautiful memories we made together and there are many more to be made. Last Long okay <3 but u shall forever remain as mine :D

Andrea: though I met you last year from PTI camp, you're amazing.  I'm thankful that I managed to meet up with you through so many camps this year and courses such as SSC and YLEAD. Thank you for being so cheerful and bubbly.

Kenneth : I don't even need to say why I'm thankful to you but you will know right! I'm thankful that I met you through camp steel and since then every single course and camps I went that was HQ related you would be in the same platoon, detail ( for competitions) except for SSC. Without said, this means I have known you for so long, and that we have become good friends. though we talked lesser after SSC, I'm still thankful for you hearing me out when I'm sad, and bitching about those who are mean to me.

Regina: for being there for me in SSC. as usual, im anti social, having made a friend like you during my 3d2n course, I learnt a lot. The Course, wouldn't be manageable if I didn't made friends , to help me through. Though both of us have confidence issue, we both still made it. Thanks

Zhi Hao: for hahah being my CZH friend and somehow inspiring me during SSC. your dedication towards your Unit is something that I definitely envy. For making SSC a bit relaxing for me hahaha, teaching me and exchanging our experiences especially since both of us went for ICEP. Our mini conversations when we fall in, during breaks and many more! Let me not forget, you teaching me rifle drills as it was my first time learning!

Clive : my long lost pri school friend who I finally caught up with during SSC. I didn't even notice you were standing beside me when we first fell in until the sir picked you as the ic and when you stood in front. I still remember whatsapping you before SSC panicking about riffle drills as I knew nothing about them. Your presence was definitely extremely helpful. Congrats on getting overall Best!

Hazieq : though I met you only on the last day of SSC through xie ting and ali...lets say you have been a great friend. Even till now, listening to me, giving me advice, I mean.. hey! You're a cool, awesome dude! Don't ever let anyone look down on you and don't let that put you down! Later on I found out that you knew, Vijay, Nick, Hanisah, Sykirah, Hafiyyan and thats almost most of the part Cs in my school.. okay maybe not all but..haha

Ali :  Thank you for being who you are. haha. from June till Now... we really take turns to bring each other up don't we. This talented guy for knowing how to play I don't even know how many instruments , drawing so well and yet knows how to prioritise his studies. Eh I suck at that okay. Thanks for being that guy who was there for me when I shut the whole world off, the one that never gave up knocking positive thoughts into me. The one who always told me to study because I just procrastinate at that every single time. you will probably kill me when I tell you I haven't done a single of my holiday hw until now...except for one. The one who still talks to me, accept me and doesn't judge me even though you know my darkest secrets. and no..i didn't forget how you helped me in SSC. I shall end this here.

The following photos sum up my year, and yes...some might be repeated

 

 

 

 

 

Taste The Twist

Alice in wonderland : Tast the Twist , was dancepointe 's end of year production :) I was extremely glad to be part of it and it was a memorable experience for me. Not everyone is able to perform on stage. It was definitely not a everyday opportunity. For those who didnt know, I was the only one in my class that wanted to participate in this bi - annual concert.  Therefore I had to join another class for the concert.  This thus gave me many opportunities to meet and make new friends. Lets not forget amazing ,graceful and talented dancers.

As a well senior girl, I had to be a student helper as well. Helping the little girls to look pretty, behave themselves,  not make so much noise backstage, and to be a "elder sister" as their teacher was most likely to be busy. Well its another thing I loved. Hahah. I hope I display my leadership qualities well.

Hopefully the images can sum up everything. I really enjoyed every single part of it.

From this experience : I learnt.. I really need to improve a lot. Hahah I danced a really short part but I was like in pain right before the show.. my dear toes you need to toughen up. I really do have a long way to go. I also learnt that a dancer needs to know how to act ^^

Fatigue

A really busy week this week... running up and down every single day. from school to dance to home,  rushing proposals , chasing others, I really have no time for myself. Lets not mentioned that I am falling sick... eye infection too...but no time to go change contact lenses... my mom probably doesn't care. Can I just mention how my schedule was for this week...

Monday : Morning AM to 6 PM ( school. extended hw and revision. )
                reached home around 7.
                clean my bedroom cause we all know my sis is a dirty ass but would never leave a finger when it comes to cleaning.

Tues: Free day till 430.
          Dance.. homed around 930.
          Got a call around 11pm ( RIGHT WHEN I WAS ABT TO ZONKED OUT) saying that my
          group's proposal wasn't sent in... had to stay up and do to proposals.
          slept around 2.
Wednesday. : went to school to finish maths holiday assignment and hand it in. around 8.
                       exco meeting from 10-1
                       Dry run with councillors from 130pm-4~
                       Went home.
                       Settle last minute proposal draft 2 to specific ppl
                       dance from 530-1030
Thur : TLLS LUNCH morning to like 3+
           went to buy a new leotard.
           went  straight to dance from 530 to 740.
           homed around 845..
           zonked out at 930.
           woke up at two to edit and send proposal.
           slept at 2.15
Friday. SCHOOL!!! 8 am to 3pm.
             go home 30 mins freshen up and head to dance
             got back around 10.
            showered, ate, now this.

probably going to edit some admin stuff before going to sleep. going to zonk out anymore.
It was a really busy week. Nothing much to tire me out maybe because I have been travelling a lot.
REALLY NEED TO FIND TIME TO CLEAN MY STUDY ROOM. need to study.. If you are reading this, please tweet me to clean my room.

Hopefully I can regain my strength during the weekend :) UCC and Concert is next week!

Lastly, with such a mentally draining week, im thankful for those who understands and help me get along. I know its not easy since im especially cranky at this period of time. Thanks for being there even though I push you guys away. im gratefully. all the small actions are noticed and appreciated for.

Throw The Negativity Out

I know my title of today's post, is very vague. What do I mean exactly? Before I carry on with what this post is about, firstly, a disclaimer: THIS POST IS NOT DIRECTING TO ANYONE. :) UNLESS YOU'RE ME. the old me.

Today, I am blogging about how I became Happier, more cheerful and to look on the bright side. If you know me in real life, or even follow me on Twitter @czhanusha , you would know I used to be extremely negative. So much that, my friends would actually get irritated. BUT THEY CARED. Looking back now, I guessed I was just a burden. They probably were too mindful with their words and actions around me because they probably didn't know when I would just get irritated or annoyed or just sad. It was definitely the most frustrating part of their life having me as their friend. I mean...sometime some of them are afraid to go to sleep...because something might happen to me at night...( probably  a big family fight ). Im not saying my family no longer fights, we just stopped throwing punches... haha this is really funny right...especially since all 3 of us are females. There are still some bickering and shouting here and there but we try to give in or we just avoid each other. Not really a good thing to do...but there's still communication between us.

How did I exactly became the person I was, to who I am today. My life is not really perfect or anything. Nothing has changed much since 1 year ago. In fact, im more stressed. Here's a few tips on how I became someone for the better :) [continue reading ] :

1. Firstly, social media. Regardless if you admit it or not, we're all obsessed with the internet. truthfully, the internet make up our lives, it controls us in some way, and one of those ways is our emotions.. Taking Twitter for example, if you follow those twitter account whereby the rant all the times about the misfortunes or the bad incident they go through...these account don't just spill all their frustrations out one day..i mean a tweet or 2 will do no harm. instead these are the accounts who go on and on and on every single day. depressions account  makes you relate to them.. at the same time they brain wash you. Imagine  if you're going through  a bad day and come across a suicidal tweet...wont you feel like you to suicide? THEREFORE, what I did, was , to unfollow all the negative accounts and the accounts that retweet those kind of tweet. I even visited social networks less often just because...I didn't want it to control me.

2. I decided to fill my schedule like packed. Its not a healthy thing but it was for a month only. WHy? when u start wanting to change, I would be difficult. I mean you have been used to it. therefore,  if im busy I wont think of such thoughts..

3.FRIENDS. Friends kind of have an influence to you. Therefore...I stopped hanging out as much with people who complain all the time and een those who pushed me down. I became closer to people who were happy more of the time. Bascially surround yourself with people who are positive and motivates you.

4. LEARN TO SAY NO. I believe this is the most important step ever. you just have to learn to say no at the things that you are not comfortable in doing. be confident in who you are and who you want to be.

5. Lastly. I like sleeping feeling happy. I either read a text message or text someone that will me cheer me up. Or even think back on what I did today, what someone said to me that made me grateful for.


These are the steps I took. This might not work for everyone. I'm not an expert, but these are just a few tips from me. BE CHEERFUL. YOURE BEAUTIFUL.

oh leading a healthy lifestyle..is extremely healthy too :)

Friday!

Hello guys! Currently on the way to the first house for deepavali celebration and thought I would do a quick post. Before I start, HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO EVERYONE :) 

In case you guys are wondering why am I blogging abt a random friday was because hahaha I had an enjoyable impromptu outing :)) whyyy? Because I survivee 3 hours of chinese. Frealing 6 periods in a row. That's extremely scary. But that would be a norm. .. soon since Os for chinese is like in 6 months time.

Went to JE with.. hanisah, nurin, sykirah,  aiysha. First we visited payless @ JCube and then we went to JEM for a tour. Guess my favourite part of it? ?

That's right. SOUGURT!!

Jessah Toralba Marie Rara

This post is dedicated to a close friend, Jessah Toralba Marie Rara.

Today, October 27 2013 is the day that you are flying off to California, by the time this is uploaded you would be in the plane, halfway through your flight. Its different compared to my friends going overseas for holidays cause you are migrating over. I know you're sad, worried and afraid.Like I said before I'll be here for you. honestly, im sure everyone else as well. Whatsapping you the past few days...I tried not to bring the topic up..im sorry I couldn't send you off.

 Just wanted to let you know,Thanks for being an amazing friend for me, even though I only met you this year and it has been less than 10months since I started talking to you. I remember the first time I talked to you was because I had a mission to pass you a letter from Jacinth... ahah and we made our way to the canteen and continued talking. ^^ I spent only 15 mins talking to you before rushing off for lessons but somehow it seemed that we talked for ages.  Thank you for being there and talking and cheering me up , those times when even my closest friends didn't reach me or when I isolated myself. Basically being such a good friend. Do remember to keep in contact! Im sorry.. I only tried talking about the happy things. If yu're sad over there just do stuff to make me jealous okay ^^ ( you know what I mean )  Text me ur new number when u get it or FB me :) Skype also can!

LOVE YOUUUU!!!

 

Cambodia Trip

Once again im back after some time. I apologise for keeping you guys from waiting. If you have been an avid reader of my blogger, if you are I thank you for sticking around my bullshit blog posts, you would have know that earlier this year in June [ yes I know...it has been 4 months] I went on two overseas trip and had a camp in school before the haze came into Singapore. After 4 months of my busy life, in school, [ yes I have no life] I just realised that I did not blog about my Cambodia Trip. yes...this is what this post is going to be about.

This Cambodia Trip is a service trip which selected councillors and some CCA leaders from my school was selected to go. I was one of the lucky few...[did miss 3 holiday lesson :/] before heading to Cambodia, we were split into groups and we had to plan a lesson plan for the kids. yes, you guessed it right. The motive of this trip was to teach the kids in a village in Cambodia. My group consist of Matthew, Zavier, Nivetha, Wei Zhi and me. haha we were the 'latecomers' for the first meeting. I had another meeting before that. I kind of am grateful for this trip because I bonded a lot with people I don't usually interact with. Taking my group members for example, Zavier and Matthew are both secondary 2 and not in my committee. Wei Zhi is my classmate but we sit at the opposite ends in the class ( he's a cca leader) . Nivetha, sadly, I don't even interact with her that much, ( different class different cca). However, if you asked me, I would say we came together real well and worked together as a team. Another three people I got close with would be Durga, Arina and Kar Yin. Guess I bonded a lot with the sec 2s!

Teaching the kids, I found that I was more patient with them..and this really shocked me. But its great. Their innocence, simplicity. wow. no words can describe it.

#phototime

Me and Jacq on the way to airport!



HUNGRYYYY

me and my rommate

Dinner

 

cutest boy ever

Matthew

test time

worksheets handmade by me

nivetha

zavier!

Horse Ride

Horse Ride Buddy

Back Home

Stuff I bought

 

 

We did visit some places.. I kinda forgot the name :/ but I remember the market we went..it was called Russian market.

 

SHOPPING ALL DONE LIKE ON thE LAST DAY AFTER CHECKOUT.

 

This trip was really memorable. we experienced so many things like; our bus breaking down and we were scared that we might miss our plane.

 

 

To my roommate; thanks felisefor enduring my shit for that one week! love you loads :)

 

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